I had another Blog Post that I was going to share but I feel compelled to share with you where I am right now. The first 9 months this year has been tough full of twists and turns and lots of storms along the way. My blog has given me space to share candidly my struggles and my triumphs. As I mentioned in Why I am loving Audiobooks and Podcast I have been listening to Chrystal Evans Hurst Podcast and have finally gotten around to reading and listening to her book “She’s Still There” http://chrystalevanshurst.com/shesstillthere/
Y’all this book is blessing MY SOUL! I am also doing the companion Bible study which I would love to do with a group of women in person or virtually.
Chrystal shares her struggles of trying to find that girl/young woman that was full of expectancy, dreams, and hope for what her life would look like. Her message resonates with me. She shares her life with such transparency, a teen pregnancy, life as a single mom, financial struggles, LIFE! So much of her story, I can identify with. What do you do with those disappointments and those expectations that were not met?
The expectations in marriage when you realize “you complete me” isn’t real, when that job is sucking the life from you, when your kids are driving you insane, church hurts, family hurts. I know we are all facing something maybe something not mentioned here but a storm none the less.
You ever feel like you are lost in all the noise of life and you find yourself slowly drifting, veering off because you can’t seem to keep it together. I fought hard doing the work to deal with the grime and shame of sexual abuse; God has allowed me to come through the other side. Good can come from hurt and disappointments when we allow God to heal those wounds and we are committed to doing the work He turns those ashes into beauty. Now If I am honest this tough season I am in right now doesn’t feel beautiful just yet but I am committed to staying the course.
As I was listening to Chrystal’s podcast today she was talking with her sister Priscilla Shier http://chrystalevanshurst.com/186-authority-with-priscilla-shirer/ about Living Life With Authority. Even in the tough times and through the fear. To have a mindset of not looking at the trials we face as something to quickly get over and praying that God would just remove whatever that thing is we are facing but rather seek God with expectancy to not only equip you through the rough spots but to gain an insight into His perspective. As hard as my journey has been as it relates to my past the process was worth what I gained in trusting and solely depending on God as He brought me THROUGH IT and me FIGHTING to rescue the girl within. I have learned that I must do my part when those difficult times come and for me that means staying in God’s Word, praying throughout the day, PRAISING, listening to encouraging podcast, journaling, reading and staying connected to friends. If you are in a stormy season of life and that girl within has faded into the background this book will encourage you! I have been listening to the podcast/and or the book and have had to restrain myself from doing a PRAISE DANCE while at work in a very quiet office (they wouldn’t get it lol). Chrystal says a few simple phrases throughout the book that have been so encouraging: YOU are loved. YOU are Valuable. YOU are accepted. YOU are okay. I am feeling encouraged just by sharing and my prayer is you will be encouraged as well.
What season are you in today?